Call

Feel the icy breeze, from your lips
Numb on the fingers, on the brain
Too cold to cry, yet heart on fire

In the height of sensation
In the depths of despair

Sheets of rain, layered like honey
Filtered thoughts, feast from the mind
Awake on sweaty nights, drenched in pain

On the horizon clouds plush
On the inside clenched fists

Strike hard against the hourglass
Against the wall held up
Up by feelings of hollow joy
Against a wall we can't
Climb up but keep on trying
Like a prisoner of glass
Dying in the afterglow
Take in broken smiles
Din of sullen eyes
Forgotten lust
Say goodbye
My dear.

Sinewy Burnouts (Writer's Block)

Wrenching playing hatred upon the masses
the ghouls and dragons of the mind melting
the one pure thing I had left
grinding my bones into dust
flaying the sacred places of the heart
pounding my way through the glass
windows my brain on fire
can't begin to stop the goddamned music
the same fucking tune played out over and over
again like a stitch in time
like needles in a haystack piercing every finger
every and staining the walls with pleasure
streaking across my vision the lies of everyone
I've ever known, the pain of those I've hurt
senseless anger breaking the dam
and I can't write a fucking thing about it
I can't give birth to the stars
and every frustration is kept there
locked away in a shitty cabinet
locked down in the embers of memory
disparate thoughts chained against the soul
holding me back from the flow
the river of heart
the lake of the mind
change me into ash on the wind
wretched stillness
spent now fallen on the horizon
these words spit out like mothers milk
I know that love will sometimes
change.

Feb. 9th

*Rant Alert* BEEP BEEP BEEP



Goddamn you Republicans, Catholic church, and your little dog too. Shut the fuck up about the contraceptive mandate. What is the matter with you people? How in the hell is making sure that poeple have access to free contraceptives an "assualt on religious freedom"? Your argument is pathetic. The mandate doesn't require anyone to be FORCED into using contraceptives, merely that they be available to those who want them. Stupid sons-of-bitches.

Yeah, it's politically inept of the Obama administration to out this out there for assault in an election year, but come on. Looking at the orange bastard John Boehner railing on the floor of the House yesterday against the mandate made me sick. It's such a stupid issue to raise when we have an economy still in shambles, a war in Afghanistan that we're trying pull a USSR on, and people who can't get affordable health care to save their lives - sometimes quite literally. So Boehner and the rest of you hypocritical fucking political bandwagoners, stop giving me yet another reason to hate you and all organized religion. Just STFU.

Ok. Whew. Rant over. I feel much better now! :-D